Repent -> Believe -> Consciously Baptized In Water -> Salvation

My Testimony

I was born into an atheist family, raised without God. I was sexually abused at a very young age, my parents divorced when I was 8, splitting my world early and life unraveled fast. In 2006, my mother died in a gas explosion, a sudden, shattering loss. Not even close to healing, then, in 2013, my ex-wife murdered our 4-year-old son in a way too horrific to describe. That was the breaking point, it broke me. Mentally, physically, spiritually, I spiraled downhill. My daughter was 8 years old at that time, she miraculously escaped the same horrible death. I am convinced that God has spared my daughter's life for which I am eternally grateful to Him. Day by day, it worsened. My mind crumbled, my finances collapsed, and my spirit withered. I was diagnosed disabled for life, and by 2023, ten years later, I couldn't walk. My heart rate hit 170 at rest; I couldn't sleep, couldn't function, couldn't live, I was a shell. I was trapped in a body and soul falling apart, ending up in a hospital at my lowest, staring at nothing, diagnosed with complicated grief, Meniere's disease, depression, suicidal, chronic stress, burnout, skin problems, fibromyalgia, migraines, temporary blindness, irregular heartbeat, balance disorder, panic attacks, anxiety, sleep apnea, and inflammatory bowel disease.

But God had a plan! On December 23, 2022, one day before Christmas Eve, Jesus found me.
I searched for healing and for the truth, I didn't seek Jesus, because I did not know Him, He came to me. Two weeks later, I was born again, baptized in water with His mercy and grace. I received salvation (deliverance, healing, well-being, eternal life). John 3:16 hit me hard: "For God so loved the world, that he gave his only Son, that whoever believes in him should not perish but have eternal life". I believed, and everything changed. Satan attacked, like he had for years, tempting me back to despair. But this time, I had Jesus. Ephesians 6:11 became my shield: "Put on the whole armor of God, that you may be able to stand against the schemes of the devil." I fought back, and I won because of Jesus the Messiah.


The Lord didn't just save my soul, He is restoring my body and my finances. My heart steadied, my legs returned, my freedom and joy came back. Romans 8:28 proved true: "And we know that for those who love God all things work together for good, for those who are called according to His purpose." Even my son, safe in Heaven, waits for me, held by the promise of Revelation 21:4: "He will wipe away every tear from their eyes, and death shall be no more."
I'm a work in progress, growing stronger daily through His power, not mine.


If you're lost, hopeless, or broken, listen. I was you. Jesus can heal anyone, fix anything, if you let Him in. John 16:33 says, "In the world you will have trouble. But take heart, I have overcome the world." He overcame my world, He can overcome yours. This isn't about me, it's about Jesus the Messiah, the Son of God, who died for our sins and rose to give us eternal life
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Here's the good news: "If you confess with your mouth that Jesus is Lord and believe in your heart that God raised Him from the dead, you will be saved" (Romans 10:9). Everyone, hear this call, rich or poor, broken or whole. Give Jesus the Messiah an honest chance. Repent, believe, and receive Him. He's real, alive, and waiting to prove it. Your story's not over, let it begin with Jesus the Messiah.

Jesus the Messiah lovingly lifted me from my darkest depths, He has saved me and given me eternal life, started healing my complicated grief, Meniere's disease, depression, suicidal thoughts, euthanasia, chronic stress, burnout, skin problems, fibromyalgia, migraines, temporary blindness, irregular heartbeat, balance disorder, panic attacks, anxiety, sleep apnea, and inflammatory bowel disease with His boundless grace, showing He is the warm, comforting answer and cure for all, and He can do even more for you, let me show you the way to Jesus the Messiah.

It's not a quick fix, it's a lifelong process!

Living with chronic inflammatory bowel disease or any other disease is a daily journey of managing pain, uncertainty, and disruption. The physical symptoms, the abdominal pain, fatigue, and digestive challenges, can weigh heavily, but so can the emotional and spiritual toll. In these moments, it's powerful to remember that even in the earliest days of the faith, believers faced their own struggles and found hope through God's presence. One of the most inspiring examples is Paul the Apostle, who openly spoke about his own "thorn in the flesh." 
In 2 Corinthians 12:7, Paul says:

Therefore, in order to keep me from becoming conceited, I was given a thorn in my flesh, a messenger of Satan, to torment me.

Though Paul never reveals the exact nature of his affliction, many believe it may have been a chronic physical ailment, perhaps similar to an ongoing illness like inflammatory bowel disease. What stands out is not just the suffering, but how Paul faced it: with humility, faith, and reliance on God's grace.

Paul's experience reminds us that pain and illness don't define our worth or diminish our calling. Instead, they become part of a larger story of perseverance and dependence on God. Paul goes on to say in 2 Corinthians 12:9:

But he said to me, 'My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.' Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses...

In my own journey with chronic inflammatory bowel disease, this promise can be a beacon: even in moments of weakness and frustration, God's grace surrounds you, empowering you in ways beyond physical strength.

Alongside Paul's example, the teachings and life of Jesus the Messiah offer profound guidance and hope. Jesus understood suffering intimately, healing the sick, comforting the brokenhearted, and embracing those marginalized by illness.

Jesus would likely encourage you to seek the best care for your body. 
Beyond the physical, Jesus invites you to place your trust in God's sustaining love. In John 16:33, He assures:

I have told you these things, so that in me you may have peace. In this world you will have trouble. But take heart! I have overcome the world.

This peace isn't the absence of difficulty, but a deep, abiding confidence that God walks with you through every flare-up, every hospital visit, every difficult day.

Moreover, Jesus calls you into community, reminding us that no one is meant to face suffering alone. The support of friends, family, and faith communities can bring comfort and practical help, reflecting Jesus love in tangible ways.

Finally, Jesus offers hope that transcends the physical world, a promise of restoration and wholeness beyond this life (Revelation 21:4). This hope brings strength and perspective, helping you face each day with courage.

In Summary:

• Like Paul, your illness may feel like a "thorn," but God's grace is always sufficient.

• Jesus invites you to rest and to care for your body and soul with compassion.

• Trust in God's peace amid suffering.

• Lean on community and the love of others.

• Hold onto the hope of ultimate healing and restoration.

Jesus the Messiah: The Only Way

Following Jesus the Messiah is not the easiest path. It's a narrow road that challenges every part of us, yet it is the only true way out, away from destruction, away from death. Every other way leads to brokenness, despair, and emptiness. But Jesus offers life, abundant and eternal.

Choosing Him means stepping into a journey of truth, even when that truth is painful. The shadows of your past, the secrets you've buried deep, the wounds within your family history will surface. It may seem frightening, but this unveiling is necessary. These hidden things are often the root of our struggles, sickness, and pain. Facing them is the first step to healing.

I know this personally. When I repented and believed in Jesus the Messiah, and was baptized in water, God revealed something to me in a dream, a truth about my dad that shook us both to the core. Jesus showed me in a dream that my dad was not actually my biological dad. To be sure, we took a DNA test, and yes the dream was true. It was a shock, but it was also the beginning of freedom. Because only when the darkness comes to light can the healing begin!

Jesus doesn't promise an easy life. He promises eternal life, a life where even the hardest truths lead to hope, restoration, and peace. If you want out of the cycle of pain and death, follow Him. There is no other way.

Losing to Gain: God's Greater Exchange

Sometimes, what feels like loss is actually the beginning of something far greater. In God's hands, losing something doesn't mean the end, it's often the doorway to receiving something better, something eternal.

I've lost more than I ever thought I could bear. I lost my health, my joy, my wealth. I lost my mother in 2005, and with her, my connection to my biological father. I became an orphan. I even lost my son, something no parent should ever go through.

When I gave my life to Jesus the Messiah, everything began to change. Not instantly, not without pain, but with purpose. When I was baptized and truly surrendered, God began to restore what was broken. Even more than that, He replaced what I lost with something better.

My health is improving every day. I'm alive, stronger, and more grateful than I've ever been. My son lives again, not here, but in a place far better than this world, a place where there's no more pain. I'm no longer an orphan, because now I have the best Father anyone could ever hope for. God Himself calls me His child. How amazing is that!

Even the truth about my dad, something I learned through a dream and confirmed by DNA, became a doorway to healing and clarity, not confusion. What felt like loss at first revealed God's deep involvement in every detail of my life.

I have everything, because I have God. His peace, His presence, His promises, there's no treasure greater. If you don't have God, you don't really have anything, but many people don't realize this yet. In Jesus the Messiah, every loss becomes a setup for a greater gain. What we surrender, God multiplies. What's broken, He restores. When you lose everything for His sake, you truly gain it all.

If you need Jesus, talk to me. I am willing to help you with your burdens. We are commanded to help the sick, the lost, the poor, the oppressed, the orphans and the widows.
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